The passed 8 years, whenever i received his sms to help him search sth for his studies, I ll dropped everything i m doing to help him. I didnt stay up 1 day to help him do his project, I stayed up 1 whole week doing a 2nd year proj that i totally didnt understand at all. For that case, I was just suppose to help up on a small part but later on he said he is not free and asked me to complete the whole proj. Ying should had known, it was on a Saturday nit, it was quite late, I rushed over to Ying’s house to take installation CD, that nit i stayed up till 2 i think just to reformat his PC so that he can do his assignments. I love road trips so much so when Ying, Kiang, Ai Wei and Lee Ing followed Ngee bang back, I didnt follow because it was a Saturday nite and I didnt want him to spend it alone. I encouraged him to have his own circle of friends but since he dropped out of uni, he felt that is better for him to keep low profile. I know he always wanted 2 go other places but his mum needs him to be around. I arranged for him to go Sematan with my friends and I. All this incident happened only at the end of last year and early this year! He told me I gave him the best 8 years a few days after his bday and the week after that he was hugging other girl watching cartoon while I had to go out to earn money! He even admitted that he went out with the girl before this. He told me he cant work and study at the same time because the pressure is just to big, so i told him is ok, he just concentrates on his study. I went out and get myself a job for both of us. He cant study and work but he has time to cheat on me with another girl. And guess what, he failed 2 papers for that semester. The passed 8 years ALL my Saturday nites are spent with him. Sometimes he ll call to have dinner, I had to cancel my dinner with my family just to accompany him! I used to showoff that my bf is very understanding letting me go to ballroom dance with my good friend but he is just looking 4 excuse to fool behind my back! After we broke off, he still have the guts to tell me that he is no one without me and as soon as the semester starts he moved up to be with the girl! All in the process of recovering, Ai Wei, knowing me well,
she gave me magazines to read about how my immune system will be affected from the breakup, I coughed for 2 months! Haha, Ai Wei even let me read magazine article about the need to make myself beautiful and countless times, reminding me that is not my fault that the relationship turned this way! With every1 loving me so much! I m really happy now! The relationship had become physically, mentally and financially draining that I m now happy to say! I m FREE!!! I can go on road trips, i can travel, i can dance, i can even buy anything i 1 and I dont need to do 3rd or 4th year of TESL assignments and projs!!!! Hehe, now more time to with my family and friends! I already told him, I forgive him already and I really do hope he and the girl are happy!
If I want to move on with my life I just need to do this even though the people around me still think I need to take my time. Really, I m writing this because I really want you guys to know I m really OK already and I had never been happier b4!