last few days, i actually felt like life has no purpose, even if I die, it doesnt matter, yes, i think ppl will b sad when the time i die, but after while life goes on n ppl will 4get about me n they will enjoy life bcos they felt how i had wasted my life. U know some of u might think that i m wrong, but i ve been there done that, yes when oliver left it was painful, but now, 8 years just erase by itself just like that, so i think even if i m so close 2 some1, once that moment gone, n that s it. it makes me think, is life really just a passing moment? but after go joggin just now, then i think die also like that life also like that, just life la n try 2 enjoy myself as much as possible but if really die also nvmla, the scary thought is any1 of us can suddenly just commit suicide even me! if i commit suicide 2moro, i just 1 all of u 2 know that i love all of u alot!