Before I left to do my PhD, I went for an eye checkup and told my doctor that I am leaving to Melbourne to do my PhD. She told me I really have the courage, despite all these. Yes, I am going blind, my eye sight deteriorating but I still want learn, I want to learn how to do research, if I can contribute to the society after that, that will be additional reward! I am not good at at at all till I feel doing a PhD is like Running in the Rain:
In reality, I do not run in the rain, unless I am half way running and it rains. I do run when it is freezing cold. Here I am in a foreign country, I have leave home before, is so uncomfortable that uncomfortable is the only feeling you can remember! You fail again and again but failure gives u room to climb up and start again. Determine enough to learn!